3rd Pass By Stranger

Rainy day, 2.51 pm.

This guy is a non-chinese, this story is about him. I address him as Mr. Min
I knoe him since 14 March. He come over to talk to me when im wit a group of friend.
At the 1st sign, i didnt ike him very much. He didnt look ugly, he consider is a handsome guy in his religion. We chat for a moment then i went off without telling where im going, but very soon he get to find me up. So from tat day onwards, we keep in contact all the way for the continues 3 month.

In between these day, we have hang out for few time. We have been hanging out for the whole nite until the next day morning. We keep msg each other everyday, they way he concern bout me is more like a boyfrien will do. He mind that if i get too close with other guy, he can be say tat he will treat me as his wife. He wish me to stay with him so that we can see each other everyday.

Isnt tat sound good. But time show the truth, we actually don have de same thinking through some issue. Actually wat he want is just to eat me up. Relationship is just a excuss for him to hv sex de his partner for free. He ever requst from me to sleep with him, de reason tat he gave me is " sex is part of de relationship"

After he have voice up this issue, he ask me to giv him an answer after he came back from a vacation wit his friend. Before he went to the trip, he ask me not to so close with guys when he is not around.

a week later, he call me straight away when he reach airport. He update me bout his trip, he olso have told me that he know 2 sister on the trip. So i though they just make more frien over there cos they are all same in country. Before he going to came back, i was still wondering for his question, how am i going to answer him. Wat is my final decision. So before he came back i finally make my decision. Im going to GIVE UP on him. I though he will ask me for the answer, but after few weeks, he didnt even ask for it.

After few week later, he start to upload his picture bout his trip. The girl are also in few of the picture. Then i say he kiss the girl in 1 of the pub. I take a deep breath when i saw the picture, but after that i didnt feel anything, not even pain at all. I just thinking "just let it be".

Very soon he is in a relationship with the girl. The 1st things that flash in my mind is that, the girl might also desperately needed.

So until the end, guys always just wanted to have sex with a girl then onli they treat de girl such in a good way.. This situation didnt stay up very long then we start to lost in contact. Hopefully the girls wont regret to be with him.

2 Stranger

Guy always like something new and fresh..
He can treat you very gentle until you fall in love with him,
But once he know that you start to Love him, he will start to run away from you.

Mr. C & Mr. AM is part of them. They really treat me very well on the early stage.
After that, we didnt meet each other for about a week, but the way he care is much more then your boyfrien will do. I like tat moment that belong to us.

Then we decide to meet up on the early 1st week after we keep on messaging each other. For me, i only meeting up guys when im intrested wit him. So we meet up ed, we have a dinner or a movie together. But since that meet up, they start to avoid contact each other, maybe im not the suitable 1 for them. But i was like being fool ed..

I think i was stupid enough to being fool around. I wont repeat the same mistake again.
So now, i getting more protective ed.. I will be more strong. Thanks for all the guy that let me learn from all the bull shit way.

All they best to you all too~!!!

1st Past By Stranger

Mr. Ivan, he is the 1st person tat in my memories tat he spend time with me.
Even we doesnt noe each other very much, but i still remember u..

Im my memories, he is flirt guy but vr caring type.. I like de way he care 1 and another.
Hope u will find ur perfect partner in ur life, i will miss u.. Good bye~!!!

272 day without WYJ

Cloudy day, Friday, 4.19pm


Last time when he wrote a note with the title <可惜不是你> i was wonder who is the person who mention. I was thinking is there any possibility might be me? Did i ever make him feel tat i might the person who be forever wit u. At the moment i was happy bcos u might still miss me.

But today, i find out the answer ed.. It is totally not me at all. Not even at all. It really hurt. I was wonder where i hv been in ur life. Maybe tat time u lost ur way, and stop ur step here. For u it might just like a vacation, but for me, u gave me a painful souvenir that never been erase.

2009.2009

today really is a special day.. last 2 yrs i was feeling busy since 1 month from now.. i was use my heart to find something to make him feel happy.. but rite now im not busy at all.. i was keep myself busy to forget him and today date.. but no matter wat i do, i will just remember it vr vr much.. i really hate this kind of feeling..

rite now i think he might not waiting for my surprise but is other ed.. donno y i still cant put down all the things tat actually really pass far behind.. i olso really vr tired.. i donno wat else i need to do to make me feel better or to forget eerything..

today is his birthday, i don even didnt msg him to wish him happy birthday.. but in my heart i was really wish to greet him HAPPY BIRTHDAY AILIN.. this onli can be say out load here but not other place ed.. good bye my ailin.. u will never out of my heart..

256 day without WYJ

Sunny day, Wednesday, 4.48

一直到你离开了很久很久以后
我才清楚的感受这城市的轮廓
只是从前我眼中看不到那么多
除了你没有别的
一些事现在才懂虽然已存在很久
但我仍旧怀念你的温柔
我不会再难过但却会永远的寂寞
i wish i could
假装不再爱你了
会习惯没有你的未来

也许你
在哪里找到你要的爱情
我只会成为你最后的分离
也许你
在哪里终于学会了珍惜
你是否回想起有个人
知道怎么爱你
P/S: donno y i still miss u vr much. Miss ur tender, ur temperature, ur smell, ur everything.

243 day without WYJ

Sunny day, Thursday, 4.04

Rite now from the fb i noe tat u going to change ur working place. I donno i should blessing u or not. The feeling in my heart rite now is wierd, even me myself doesnt noe why. I surpose to feel happy for u, cos u find ur new job.
But i would olso feel tat we getting more far away from each other.

From among our frien, i heard tat u getting closer wit the girl. Bringing here all way long wit u to most of ur place. I think u really like here vr much. Last time when i wish to join, u will always find excuse to not bring me or u will find some time tat im not around to join ur frien. These is wat Love always being unfair.

I think most of u all feel that im being stupid to care all the pass tense things. But i just cant control myself, i try very hard to make myself bz all the time, try to noe more nw faces around me, try to enjoy the time going club at nite but those things cant even let me for forget u for moment. Everything just link bc to the pass time wit u.